About This Zine

I made Confessions of a Disabled Punk in August of 2025, when I realized my physical symptoms were consistant with hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. I was struggling with the knowledge that I likely needed to retire from the mosh pit due to the progression of my disabilities.

It was difficult for me to properly articulate why this decision was so devastating, but deep down, I knew it was related to a loss of autonomy.

My chronic illness is something I have no control over. But for a few years, moshing gave me a way to feel in control of my pain. Unfortunately, doing so is no longer enjoyable or safe for me.

I miss it, and I think I always will, but I knew that it was time to start listening to my body. I still hold out hope that it may be viable for me again one day, but for now, I engage in the subculture in other ways.